Mood: itch of wandering toes
Listening To: You're Gonna Go Far, Kid- The Offspring
Reading: The Omnivore's Dilemma by Michael Pollan
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"...and ambulance chasers. poor pick-a-pockets, bring 'em in... we're lining up the light-loafered and the bored bench warmers. castaways and cutout, fill it up. come join the youth and beauty brigade."--the decemberists
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so summer is pretty much over. though according to our georgian weather, it won't really end until it becomes just the smidge bit chillier.

it's over in the sense that i start college on the 30th, y'know.

i'm very relieved at this to tell you the truth, without a job or school to occupy me, summer has been quite monotonous and boring at intervals. don't get me wrong, i love my boy and the inception of dating, but besides hanging out with him, i haven't been doing much of anything.

i feel stunted a bit, and sad that i can't come up with better uses of my time. we don't currently have internet at my house due to money troubles, but i could always be stockpiling poem notes and observations until i am able to post them. but i'm not.

honestly, i haven't been writing at all recently, and it's starting to bug me. i've heard people admit that it's easier to be miserable and write than it is to be content and write. well, maybe that's true, but i'm more inclined to believe i'm simply acclimating to a different perspective of words.

as such, i think i'll dust off my two unfinished NaNo monstrocious that have been waiting so patiently for my attention. they need serious editing and then story continuation. it'll be strange getting back into the plots and the characters idiosyncracies, but i think i'll manage.

there're so many things i've realized lately that i'm aching to do. i'm on the cusp of adventure, and all i lack is the necessary funding... i may be able to secure a job at a horse farm about three miles outside of my college, but it's up in the air. it would be glorious to have such an opportunity.

i'd love to be able to plant my own garden and take dance lessons and yoga class and buy so so so many books and start a travel saving account... but all of these require money! it saddens me that my adventurous nature could be halted by the menial issue of money... but y'know, such is life.

it'll be all right. i'm in love, going on 4 months of togetherness, and i'm making a Decision to start writing again, regardless of happiness or sadness.

also, in october i'm going with my dad, brothers and step-mom on a cruise to the bahamas, which is exhilirating since i've never been out of the deep south, let alone the country. things will jumpstart again this upcoming month, i'm sure of it. c:

oh yes, and happy deathday anniversary diamond girl. 6 years and counting on the twenty-second.

farewell summer, hello autumn~

Jessica

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